Alright, I have to be honest. Making goals scares me. It feels like too much pressure. What if I don’t live up to them? What if I fail? And so, making no goals and having no expectations seems to work best for me.
My (still) rigid and controlled personality keeps me on a pretty tight line anyways, so who needs goals, right? WRONG. We can ALL benefit from making goals, my self included.
Goals are not written in stone, my friends. Nobody is holding a gun to my head, demanding I reach every and all goals I make. It may feel like I am doing these things to myself, however, but no external factor is to blame. In recovery though, I think that goals can be extremely helpful. Especially if you find yourself in that period of recovery where you’ve reached a healthy weight, you’re eating and not exercising obsessively, but you still have a list of foods you’re ‘not allowed’ to eat, list of things you’re ‘allowed’ to do, you still ‘have’ to exercise (just not as much), etc. It feels like anorexia’s annoying cousin- not remotely anywhere near the horror’s caused by the one and only, but it still puts a definite damper on your life.
So, with that said…goals. What are my goals? Well, first I had to think about what things are going well in my life and recovery and what things need a little push. So here are some things that I want to achieve this week:
1) Eat a bagel with cream cheese. This was recently added to my ‘Food Bucket List.’ I bought the bagels (gluten-free for me!), bought the cream cheese. I’m ready. I actually had toast with cream cheese this morning (BAM!), but I need to have that bagel. It will happen this week. And you all will hold me accountable.
2) Allow myself to have something other than salad for lunch. Alright, to clarify- I am not going to force myself to not have a salad for lunch, because most days, they are what I legitimately crave. However, some days, salad for lunch is just not appealing, but I do not allow myself to have something else because I ‘have’ to eat a salad for lunch. Well, not this week. If I feel like something else, I will allow myself to have something else. No anxiety. If I eat grains/carbs for lunch I will not die. Shocking.
3) Have at least one ‘fun’ night with my roommates. This one is SO important. My roommates freakin rock! We are all BFF’s- seriously. I love them. So…that’s the goal. The one week this didn’t happen in September was kind of suck-ish. It happened last night, (we went out shopping, cooked together and sat talking at the kitchen table for 4!!! hours) and it was amazing. I woke up feeling like a rockstar. This needs to happen more often (without sacrificing my work, of course!).
4) Try a new recipe this week. I tend to stick to the same foods and meals. I don’t like to venture outside of my food safe zone. However, I pin recipes all the time, and I’ve decided that I need to start actually making some of these! I am excited for this goal, and can’t wait to decide what I’m going to make! I’m thinking I’d also like to make this a weekly goal… ;)
5) Try a new/old (nostalgic) ‘treat.’ I picked up some chewy caramels the other day (SPONTANEOUSLY!!!). You know those ones that you used to get trick-or-treating when you were a kid?
Ya, those ones. And I had one last night. And it rocked my face off. I was sitting with my roommate just before I ate it, while she was eating dark-chocolate covered almonds and she offered me one. Now normally, I would have politely declined. However, last night I was feeling brave. I didn’t hesitate or overthink it (that’s what always gets me into trouble), and I just said, “Yes, please!” instead. And I ate it right there. Immediately before I ate my caramel. And it put the biggest smile on my face. Two big challenges, knocked down. Winning. :)
Alright my friends, so that’s my game plan… It;s time to stop messing around and get serious about recovery- TRUE recovery. Who’s going to join me in setting weekly goals? Don’t be scared! The only person in charge is you :)
Don’t be shy- Tell me about your goals for the week! :D
Much love and health,