Eventually

14 Jan

Right now, recovery may feel impossible. Like an insurmountable task. A mountain too high to climb. An obstacle too difficult to navigate. You don’t even know where to begin.

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But you know what? All you have to do is take one baby step forward.

You usually eat a 1/4 cup of oats for breakfast? Eat a 1/4 cup and 1 tablespoon.

You usually exercise for 60 minutes a day? Exercise for 50 minutes today.

You purge your lunch every day? Not today.

Just sit with the desire, that nagging ED voice telling you what you should do and you tell it to shut it. Your self destruction ends today. Right now. Not tomorrow. Now.

If you didn’t eat enough today, get up right now and have a snack. No matter what time it is. Stop following your self-imposed rules. Keep moving forward.

Recovery is not easy or comfortable. You are stepping outside of your ‘safe zone’ where you can partake in all of your maladaptive behaviours. But you know what? They don’t help you. They never did. They don’t make your life any better or easier or decrease your anxiety.

You deserve a full and happy life. One where you wake up excited for the day- just because.

Eating disorders suck your soul. But you can get it back. One spoonful at a time. Never, ever, ever, ever give up on yourself and your life. You are too valuable to lose.

Much love and health,

Lauren xo

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12 Responses to “Eventually”

  1. Alex @ therunwithin January 14, 2013 at 9:32 pm #

    Amen to all of this. I think a year and a half ago when I looked at recovery as less of a big mountain and more as a bunch of stepping stones I learned I can tackle it.

  2. Kate January 14, 2013 at 9:36 pm #

    Your timing with this was absolutely perfect. Thank you!

  3. Sarah January 14, 2013 at 11:34 pm #

    Thank you for this encouragement. I often feel like “It’s fine if I left out that one little piece of food.” Or I feel like since my body feels uncomfortable, it’s ok not to eat ALL I need to today, as long as I do a good amount of it. It’s encouraging to hear the push to eat all I need to eat and overcome this disease and addiction. The lies ED tells are SO believable..until you take a step back and realize that ED is psycho and ruining your life!

    • Lauren January 16, 2013 at 5:01 pm #

      You’re completely right…We can no longer eat intuitively because we will always veer towards under eating. I’m glad that you have recognized this and realized that ED only adds negatives to your life! Keep fighting!

  4. Chelsie S January 15, 2013 at 12:28 am #

    Just because I had a good day today, doesn’t mean that I’ll have a good day tomorrow, but it doesn’t mean that I’ll have a bad day either. Take every moment as it comes, make every decision consciously, and take each step with confidence.
    Insight is best seen in hindsight, but it doesn’t mean we can’t take that wisdom forward with us.

    • Lauren January 15, 2013 at 4:39 pm #

      Just one minute or meal/snack at a time. Every step we take forward that angers ED makes our true selves that much stronger. You are so right- take that wisdom forward with you and grow everyday. <3

  5. pickyrunner January 15, 2013 at 1:12 am #

    You can get through this. I like all of those tips about the baby steps. It’s so important. And it makes it so much less scary. Who’s stopping you from having that extra bite? Nobody except for yourself. Great suggestions for those still struggling :)

    • Lauren January 15, 2013 at 4:40 pm #

      You’re right- the only one stopping you is yourself. Baby steps are much less scary :)

  6. adashofmeg January 22, 2013 at 3:30 pm #

    YES YES YES! When I was recovering I totally did that plus 1 tablespoon thing too!!!!!!!!!!!! love you

    • thehomeostaticmindset January 23, 2013 at 3:39 am #

      Doesn’t adding 1 tablespoon make it SO much easier!? Thanks for reading! xo

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