Right now, recovery may feel impossible. Like an insurmountable task. A mountain too high to climb. An obstacle too difficult to navigate. You don’t even know where to begin.
But you know what? All you have to do is take one baby step forward.
You usually eat a 1/4 cup of oats for breakfast? Eat a 1/4 cup and 1 tablespoon.
You usually exercise for 60 minutes a day? Exercise for 50 minutes today.
You purge your lunch every day? Not today.
Just sit with the desire, that nagging ED voice telling you what you should do and you tell it to shut it. Your self destruction ends today. Right now. Not tomorrow. Now.
If you didn’t eat enough today, get up right now and have a snack. No matter what time it is. Stop following your self-imposed rules. Keep moving forward.
Recovery is not easy or comfortable. You are stepping outside of your ‘safe zone’ where you can partake in all of your maladaptive behaviours. But you know what? They don’t help you. They never did. They don’t make your life any better or easier or decrease your anxiety.
You deserve a full and happy life. One where you wake up excited for the day- just because.
Eating disorders suck your soul. But you can get it back. One spoonful at a time. Never, ever, ever, ever give up on yourself and your life. You are too valuable to lose.
Much love and health,